Where the fuck is Kyle/Did he vanish into thin air/up and disappear/out of fear is it clear/was he going broke/was he very out of money/did a crazy ex/push him halfway cross the country/what was the meaning/why was he leaving/the light did he see it/he find jesus/he start preaching/or did he get sick of leeching/did he give up on his dream/retire from the rapping thing/did his bars stop being dope/did it feel like he just choked/could he ever find his spot/did he ever do detox/were his failures scaring him/did he give up the heroin/did those demons overtake him/all those problems did he face em/was he thinking he'd erase em/drive i65 and just escape em/dont he know that they just follow/he cant escape his hollow/he still just drown his sorrows/in the bottom of a bottle/still leave it to chance/does he still believe in dumb luck/or does he know his father's right/and he's a fucking fuck up/Like help please/Fighting disease/The drugs that I need/Destruction that feeds/Sobriety please/Cant handle the clean/The standard it seems/Is ravaging me/I stay up late night/And write/just to ward off this depression/But this is the strongest weapon/And it seems I'm no exception/I/came here for sober/I/can't seem to find it/I'm/just sick of lying/Without these drugs I'm dying/Im 26 still mentally stuck at 14/arrested mental development of a buster/chasing all my dreams/sometimes i just need a hand/this world be trying to take mine/loose seals be too real/I'm impatient cant take time/my girl said/boy just play your video games/and i just think/i wished she looked like lana del ray/now these daydreams consuming/of packed houses approving/got the crowd shaking and moving/much better than what im doing/and thats nothing/its disgusting/just getting fatter getting older/hope to hold up some composure/i can tell right now im folding/i dont write as much as i used to/that h bomb was just my fuel/need the drugs back/to get me on track/and keep at this rap/shit/ thought i was cool when i was fucking drug free/but then it was genius level/when drugs was in me/miles davis kurt cobain/ray charles john coltrane/every artist left me amazed/seemed to love to spike their veins/so i did it/i admit/i loved the fucking feeling/sink to happiness/bars catching em/creative to the ceiling/but i was so drained/couldnt maintain/the pace that i set up/i felt fine/but it would turn to heinz/any minute that shit would catch up/so now im in atlanta/left depression in the midwest/or so I thought/Its hands are still around my neck.......